fractured

fractal florals form within

this garden baked in lovers sin

sunset the days we use to steal

away the pain begins to feel

longing lost in sweeping tides

it’s where our love washed up and died

though what we planted used to grow

our feelings feed the undertoe

drowning in this color blue

just know it’s all because of you

// after five and a half months of pain and not knowing, I finally have a diagnosis. surgery hopefully set in the next couple months to remove this part of me that’s killing me slowly. then I can heal. then I can get married. then I can move. then I can settle down and grow.